Tuesday morning feelings

Right now I feel like going out of my workplace and buy something. What? Perhaps something to eat, so that I can reduce the sad and empty feeling inside me. And perhaps something to cheer me up – a new shoulderbag, a piece of jewelry?
Earlier today I’ve spent (thrown away) NOK 100,- (≈USD 20,-) [...]

Oh no!!

I need to see a dentist. I hate going to the dentist! Yesterday I lost a bit of one of my teeth while eating. It just fell out… Some of my teeth have had so many holes plumbed, that only thin walls remains. So it’s no wonder that bits fall off. But, I [...]

Handling criticism… :(

I don’t know how to handle criticism without it shattering my self-image. I know I’m supposed to separate person and actions, so that people criticising for example my handling of a work task, doesn’t automatically become a critique of me as a person. The problem is that I can’t put this into action. Yesterday my [...]

It’s enough!

My tummy is the size of a pregnant woman ready to give birth, I have heartburn and sitting at my desk in the office is not comfortable! This would be acceptable if I had been pregnant, but I’m not, and it is all due to me eating too much. This morning [...]

The more one eats, the more active one should be…

Here’s a new thought to me: if eating a lot of chocolate, I should be more active than if I’m not eating chocolate or other sweets. I’ve always thought that eating chocolate is such a “crime” (to myself anyway) that I could just give up on all good intentions… but talking to my GP on [...]

The cat is out of the bag…

No more secrets and lies! I sent my husband an all-revealing email earlier today, and I feel so relieved! The sun shines outside and I actually enjoy it. I detailed all about my credit card debts and my latest CED-activities (compulsive eating disorder) which he didn’t know about until now… I also made a list [...]

Jeg er en løgner!

Ah, der var det “sagt”. Jeg har hele mitt liv vært opptatt av å være ærlig og snill og flink og grei – for å bli godt likt. Men nå er jeg en sånn som lyver! Jeg har dårlig samvittighet, men jeg tenker også at “alle andre gjør det jo, så jeg kan [...]

Nå er jeg kvalm

huff, HVORFOR klarte jeg ikke å holde meg i dag? Etter 2,5 måned med hemmelig og godtespising skulle jeg slutte, igjen, i dag. Dagen begynte så bra med å greie å gå utenom kiosken på vei til jobb, men senere på dagen – etter lunsj – bar det rett på kiosken for å handle. 200 [...]